All the world needs now...

Well this is all "a fine to do" then, isn't it? So I was just reading a fantastic blog that I really enjoy "FOR YOUR SAKE" go and check it out..., hmmm see what I did there. I know..., sometimes I even amaze myself, haha!  So anyways, like I said I have been reading this blog for some time, and I came to the conclusion that that boy just really needs to get laid. Sorry FMS, but it had to be said. I was even going to post a comment to that effect..., something along the lines off -

"Dude..., really? I think to be honest you just need to get laid..., even if all else fails you end up paying for it."

- and then I came to my senses. Honestly is this all we really need? I can't honestly say that it is.

In fact I was having a rather "deep and meaningful", with my hetero life partner (Best Friend) the other day, and I had to admit to not only him, but also myself that I crave something far more simple. Hey don't get me wrong..., if the opurtunity arose, I would take it full force. I know what you are thinking and your dirty mind would be right on the money there. Anyway back to the point...

This is what I am missing. Sex is good don't get wrong, but being able to be this close to someone, is just so much better. I can remember several guys that I have woken up to, guys that have been freaky and passionate the night before, until we fell asleep in each others arms. Then in the morning, they are just so cute, like a lost puppy as I watched them come out of the sleep that only the loved can sleep. Their eyes kinda puffy, and watery, the smile that greets me each time. Heaven..., fuck angels and harps and fluffy clouds..., heaven is the sight of your boy as he wakes to the world and realises that the first sight he sees is you..., and smiles.

Those of you out there that have this, cherish it..., kill to protect it, because it is so rare and beautiful. Unfortunately though, what most of us have to look forward to is something more like...

Shattered and alone..., always left wondering what went wrong..., is it me..., was it him? Why has all that was good in this world forsaken me? Why am I so unlovable......., why am I so..., broken? 

I have to admit, this is where I am at the moment as well. It is a kinda self-imposed exile on my part, as I am far too fucked up for a relationship at the moment anyways. It still hurts sometimes, and I often find myself wishing that I could cry...., sometimes all you need is a really good cry, I just can't. To be honest that makes me even more sad, but there is nothing I can do about it.

Fuck I need a drink right now! But I can't do that either, because like the hulk when he is angry..., you really wouldn't like me when I am pissed.