The perils, and pitfals of love....

I swear sometimes that god is a woman, who takes great pleasure in mocking me. More on that that later...,

Today I was graced by two of the most beautiful men that I have yet seen in this town, and they both work for the same company as me. First is a guy that I have known since I started working there, over two years ago. We'll call him Jamie. Jamie is a couple of years younger than me, a little shorter, with beuatiful green eyes, and a skaters body and style. The moment I saw him my heart swooned. Ever since I have held a secret crush for him. It has to be secret, because one, he is straight, and two, he has a serious girlfriend.  The really sad thing is we used to work quite close with each other, then he transferred to another department. Now I see him only once in a while.

The second, well we will call him Shane. He works in another department as well, though we share the same same floor, and almost the same space. Shane, is almost as tall as me, slim and looks beautiful in casual or corporate! He has the cutest butt, and sweetest smile.Shane has only worked for the company for a few months, but has already made a big impression..., especially with me! Once again though, I won't tell him how I feel, because he has a wife and a kid.

Now the mocking..., as I mentioned earlier, god is a woman who mocks me! Why do I always fall the ones that I can't have? I am not into the scene at all, so I guess that seriously limits my options. Buit even so the law of averages dictates that I should be able to fall for at least one guy that shares my "Interests". When I was younger, I was told that, "There is someone out there for everybody." Well??

Where the fuck is he??

Honestly, time is really running short here, I don't have much time left to do all those things I want to do with my partner. You know, raise a family, get a mortgage..., you know? The normal adult stuff. To be honest the thing I miss most about having someone, is the cuddles. Someone to hold me when I am down, and tell me things are going to be allright.

 

This is how I feel sometimes..., broken....., and alone.