Do you ever get that feeling....

That life is just passing you by? In a little over six hours, I have to get up and go to a job I am beginning to really dislike. To put that last statement into perspective for you....

I work as Technical Helpdesk Operator, for a rather large company here in little ole Kiwiland. It pays reasonably well, well it pays the bills anyway. Unfortunately there is no progression for me in the near future, unless the two people above me were to meet with a mysterious accident. That is not something I am planning though by the way. Also I just heard through the grapevine that we are unlikely to get any pay raises this year, due to the recession...., but hang on! Haven't we just hired three new top end managers? This situation sucks!

So following on from that, I could almost put up with my work life, if my personal life was good. Well, let me tell you! My personal life sucks almost as badly. I haven't gotten laid in some time. My last real relationship was the fella I talked about a few posts down. And to top it off I turned thirty this year!

By my age, my dad had two kids, a wife, a house, a good job..., all in all a good life. His life fell to pieces not long after that, but that is not the point! Where the bloody hell are my kids, my white picket fence, my loving partner?? Honestly sometimes I just don't know why the hell I bother going on. I am not, and never have been suicidal, it's just that sometimes I feel like Atlas had it easy..., know what I mean?

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Taking a different tack here.., I found this pic a few months ago, and had pretty much forgotten about. So I was clearing out some of my pic folders today and came across it. It really speaks to me..., I don't know why, just the hope of adventure I guess....