“Weird quiet guy in the corner”…

So…, it’s been a while huh? First off I guess I should mention that, all is relatively fine in my world. Back is still a little tender, but I can live with it. Job still sucks, and I can’t get anyone to swap any days over Christmas…, yeah great team spirit huh?

Speaking of team spirit…, gotta love the watch words for the company INTEGRITY, HONESTLY, LOYALTY. Well…, on that note, my team had their Christmas dinner tonite. First, it was set at a time that not all could attend, second the team leader didn’t manage to organise cover, third the National Call Centre Manager said that she didn’t have the authority to close the help desk early. So no loyalty there then, no honesty either, and integrity…, well, I guess it just goes to show, how they really value their staff. Once again the day crew gets the party, and the night crew gets the shaft.

Without lube I might add!!!

So anyways…, spent some time with the family, over the weekend. I went home to finally lay my grandmother to rest. It’s been a year, since the funeral and cremation. Was a lovely day, weather wise, as we put her into the ground. Just the family, and some of her very close friends.

Afterwards we went to the uncle’s hobby block, for a good ole get together. I tell you my family doesn’t do things by halves…, there was three BBQ’s running for the most of the day, as stragglers came and went. Plenty of good food and drink. The young boys even had their train running. They have a small scale replica steam train, that fully operational, runs around a track laid across the property.

Well…, by now I am sure, you are wondering about the post title. Let me give you a little backstory… When I was very little, my dad moved us away…, not sure why, but he needed to be away from family for a while. So for the first ten years of my life, we were very isolated. Hence I have none of the shared experiences that the rest of my cousins do. Add to that, that I am on the fenceline as to ages go, My next youngest cousins are all under 18, and my next oldest are all over 40. So as you can see, at 31, I am smack bang in the middle.



 This makes it very difficult to connect to anyone really, hence I end up being the “Weird quiet guy in the corner”. I just can’t seem to feel the same way about them, that they feel about me. At these gatherings I tend to drop my usual, happy carefree persona, and come across all shy and introspective. Though I must admit that my family are not ones to let that stop them. In fact I even had a couple of really good conversations.

It seems that my secret life, or at least what I thought that they didn’t know, is not so secret after all. I mean shit…, since I came out, and even before that, I never really kept it hidden, But on the same token I never advertised it either. So I can remember saying the phrase “Jesus! Does everyone know?” several times. It was however gratifying to watch them take it in their stride. To be honest, none of them cared really.

I guess in that way I am really lucky.