Been a little quiet of late, and to honest I am feeling a little unloved. I don't know if I am just being over sensitive, or it really is as I fell..., but there you go. Maybe it is just the fact that Valentines day is just around the corner, and like so many years before, I have no one special to spend it with. In times past, even though it is just a commercial gimic, I have really enjoyed Valentines..., one really is the loneliest number sometimes...
I don't know. Maybe i'm just over thinking things, but I really do feel this way. I see so many couples on the streets, and I just have to stop myself before I get angry. I just can't help but think..., "Why can't I have that?". I mean was is so terribly wrong with me, that I seem so destined to be alone?
One of those aforementioned couples I saw in the supermarket the other day..., they must have been atleast 70, but they still held hands all the way through, and were whispering and smiling at each other. Even after so long, well I assume it was, I mean who can tell these days..., they just seemed so loving, like they were back in high school or something..., it was really sweet for them..., but depressing for me.
I may post more about this later, but right now I have to get to work.
11 hours ago
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don't buy into that tv version of love ... a friend of mine's grandparents were married for almost 65 years ... and sometime when his grandma was about 85 and his grandpa was about 90 - she tried to kill him with a butcher knife in the kitchen, except she fell and broke her hip while she was chasing him and he was too scared to come across the room and help her ... not even sure why I'm telling you that story, except maybe to say don't feel unloved till somebody you think loves you is chasing you around the house with a butcher knife
That is so funny - the measure of love and not the act itself
I know what you mean...everytime I think about that kind of thing, the phrase 'cross that one must bear' pops into my head! WTF! I don't particularly appreciate those thoughts; I think they are the result of society's patronizing position and/or judgement on us... Why can't we experience w/o fear, the love that we are entitled to as human beings? I don't really have any answers on this, I guess I'm just venting... I do try to live my life in a loving fashion, and always hold out hope that things will change for the better; It makes life more bearable! In the meantime, I refuse to accept the stereotypes that society attempts to attach to those that are different, and truly believe that I am in this world for a reason- someday I expect some clarity, maybe after I am no longer a physical presence on this planet... I hope things go better for you- we all deserve love! hugs, tman
Oh I believe in long term love that grows stronger every day. I know because I am in such a relationship.
Sorry not to bring you down and I feel you will find some one really, but we are going on twenty years this year. My grand parents sat beside each other each night and held hands, until the day he died.
Can I ask why you feel you don't have something to offer some one, you sounded defensive? I am sure you have a lot of to offer the right person.
Are you free to date and look around? Sorry I should have taken the time to go back in your blog, but I felt drawn to this one post. I don't like to see people sad and like to help when I can.
Best wishes to you, be well and warm thoughts to you.
Scottie
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Oh, Octavius you are a very lovable person, nice guy too. And while valentines day is kinda all hype, its the fact that you are feeling left out that hurts. Have you been all brave lately and gone out looking for someone? Strangely enough, true loves are usually not delivered..... But damn that would be totally stellar!!
You are not over thinking things at all. Being loved is a basic need all people have. Ask your friends if they know of someone, get out there and look! Stop playing your video games, and slow down on the blogging and get out there. Yeah, yeah we will miss you, but we just want you to be happy!
Awww......
(((HUGS))) Octavius!!
I know that EXACT feeling. I always seem to bump into happy couples, kissing and making eyes at one another and wonder if I'll ever have that.
*sigh*
-Dean
You are most definitely not alone in feeling this way. For every loving couple you see and can't help but envy, there are just as many or more people who are sad and alone. Myself being one of them. Thanks, by the way for the comment on my blog. Being new to the blog world, it makes it encouraging for me to continue when I get nice comments.
LD
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