Man I'm really starting to suck at this whole blogging thing. I dunno what's with me really, I've never had so much trouble saying something before. I mean usually I just open my fat mouth and a whole pile of shit just rushes out. Actually, that's a pretty funny image don't ya think? I even took a six week break from writing my book... I think it was six weeks.
To be fair, I really don't know what the hell is going on. I just feel in this kind of sticky molasses type malaise lately. Like I just can't be bothered doing anything, when I get home from work I just conk out on the bed and watch movies, before drifting off to sleep. I'm even totally behind in all the blogs I follow... sorry to those of you that still care about me... I will catch up one day, I promise.
It's work I think, to be honest, it's totally killing me. I feel so drained. So much so that I barely even leave the house anymore, unless it's to go back to that shithole, or get supplies. Nine Inch Nails had it so totally right... everyday is exactly the fucking same! I know I need to get out more, but I just totally don't have the energy.... the sad thing is, is I'm really lonely.
I'm on the way back though I think... maybe this will become a regular thing again.
11 hours ago
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Yeah, sounds like a low-grade depression possibly brought on by stress to this well-below-amateur psychologist.
This time of year tends to bring a lot of people down; seems to be a combination of the days getting shorter (so a kind of seasonal affected disorder) as well as the holidays coming up (which actually depress more people than they cheer).
I have to agree with Austin on that assessment. My counter-strategy involves warm inside lighting, open space, and loud music that you like.
In spite of the blahness of the year, try to get out during the daylight hours when you can and just enjoy the things you see. Find a flower or something. If you can't find one, make one. Deviantart will help with that adventure.
We'll be looking for you, so do post and such.
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